Autumn Leaves for My Best Friend: Retno Kawuryan

today i just knew that my best friend died of cancer yesterday…
nobody told me about this and that she had this cancer for maybe more than 3 years now…. she didn’t tell me, his husband didn’t tell me, my other friend didn’t tell me…. they just assume that as her best friend i would know about all these….

2 weeks ago she called me with her cheerful voice and saying she missed our hanging out times, and ask me to hang out with her and her 8 year old daughter, just like the old days… i had it as a rain cheque, not knowing that it would be the last time i will ever hear her voice again….

rest in peace my friend, i didn’t know that you have those heavy burden on your shoulder…. find peace…. let these falling leaves be your last sheet… and my memory of you will linger forever… your beautiful soul is as warm and colorful as these falling leaves….